Sunday, March 28, 2010
This has been sad news for the whole entire United States and other countries. Former Senator Nancy Schaefer and her husband, were found in their home, shot to death, Friday, March 26, 2010. The officials are saying it was a murder-suicide.
I, like many other Americans, feel this is not the case as Mrs. Schaefer and her husband were devote and devoted Christians. It is inconceivable that they would take this kind of action by their own hands without considering the consequences of eternal life with our great Lord and Master.
You know, in my entire life, there have been only two, "great ladies," I have admired most with their courageous spirits. When they passed on, I have cried and felt a great emptiness... Princess Di and now Nancy Schaefer.
Please take a moment and say a prayer for not only the families of these victims, but for all of the families, Mrs. Schaefer has been fighting for. We need to continue her work and carry it on as she has laid the foundation for all to follow.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
This is a short piece from a speech I'm preparing for an upcoming event. There's much more I want to add, but with this beginning, it's something I wanted to share with my readers. Blessings... -Abby
The person I am today, is someone who is humbled- who was broken and is now speaking from the heart. God’s heart! I have been through hell- been there and back again. I hate everything that I have had to endure, but God gave me the strength to go on- to continue on when I thought there was no need for me even to be here. You have no idea of how much I wanted to end it all. Even in death, (within my own mind,) I wanted out- I wanted peace.
The thought of death became my comfort as it would end everything in this world for me. Unfortunately, or fortunately. I was afraid to end it all- I didn’t have the courage to end it on my own. I had been brought up to believe, if you killed yourself, it was an unforgivable sin to do so.
Even as a child, I learned about God… I had respect as it was drilled into me. Truthfully, I never understood what my purpose was in life until a few years ago. After I learned how to forgive, it was then I understood.
God is so awesome! His tender love and grace, is so very awesome! Life is short- why contemplate on all that holds us prisoner here? Anger, hate- why must we be victims to such? I was a victim of domestic violence- I am no longer a victim!!!
How do you learn to free yourself of this? It’s an individual process, one that you must be willing to take.
When you have reached rock bottom- there is no where else to go except up. I reached that- I cried, I screamed- my heart felt as if it were torn and shredded into pieces. I felt as if I had reached my end- it was either death, or life. I was ready for it all to end… Then this gentle, quiet, voice said, “no!” It was a voice within me- one that spoke with clarity.
I was confused. People accept this voice as, the sub-consicious, as the good or the bad. The good or the evil.
I had so much to work out within myself. God kept on telling me to write what I did, (He was an agonizing pain about this,) While I was writing, He hit me with a ton of bricks about learning how to forgive.
Forgiving is a long hard process. It is something you learn within yourself and within the circumference of yourself. It is something you have to do on your own. Remember the saying, “In order to forget, you must forgive?” I have forgotten the transgressions-God has cleared my mind and my heart of everything. I don’t want to relive them as God has granted me the strength to forgive, and such a relief it is.
So many questions have come… how do I forgive? The answer is hard, but it is complete. Search within yourself to find the answer. Life is short, when it comes to the after life- does it matter? The answers in yourself are hard to come by, but if you listen to that small voice? You have the world by the tail!!